Thought it was okay.

Couldnt be uphill forever
Hardly had a chance to pull myself up
Reaching for you, reaching for me
Instantly knew it was okay
Sunshine
Took way too long to realize
I had done it the wrong way
And now I feel like everything was wrong
Never saw it coming.

all i want for christmas is you

take her with you
hold her in your arms
a way to show you care
and will never let her fall
fingers intertwined
a promise of forever
to look her in the eyes
and know she'll always be there.
she looks you in the eye
a glimmer of love
whispers of never
sadness fills her heart
to know it couldn't ever be her

always let down
brought up and slammed again
the glimmer of hope. sears your retnas and pierces your heart
a way into you
a way into me
blocked by arrogance and fright.
scared of what would ever happen if i said anything more
too much
too little
but too late to ever believe anything else
you're so stubborn
to block out your heart
in order to keep mine.

blind

you made me understand the debris will never go away
the pain will never heal
you alienate yourself
only to make it worse on me
ive tried
ive failed
what more can i do?
jealousy can only run through my head so much
i should start to run
and jump the hurdles, but you will only make me fall
you are all i think about
you are all i want to think about
i dont know what to do
bur just let me be
with you
"we are the real, the truth is unchangin'. this is the call to hearts that aren't beatin'"
oh.

oops she did it again

say hello to the biggest liar around
line up cause baby, its gonna be a show
look up ever word you can't understand
but baby you ain't gonna be defined
ban regrets

loves you, loves you more

sick and tired of waiting
tired of waiting to get sick.
would take some cough medicine
but you, baby, are the only thing
thats gonna cure this headache
sore throat
sore heart
gotta get that triple bypass
hoping it'll clear my mind too
stat...
...clear
get out of the way
cause im comin through.

come on come on

take it like a man
lie straight through your teeth.
going through everything trying to find a word
that rhymes with hate
(every) obligatory "dont worry dolly,
you won't feel a thing."
walking down the pews
nervously
confessing to everything shes done
judging on her innocence
she's pretty damn guilty if you ask me.
but it's too late now
she waited
and waited
and wanted you to know she was still there
holding up the flag of
"im still here"
remember me?
you love to hate her
but she hates to love you.

alarming. isnt it?

mistakenly hopeful
had a good day
but friday the 13th was my luckiest
my birthday
and it all went down hill from there
wondered why
but wanted to know where it went
"who's this?"
on the other end of the line
the string broke
only a can to me ear
your smile in a flash
and gone in an instant
everything gone.
gone.
"is it typical for us to end like this..?"