why is it that everytime i walk by
you never know im alive
but i remember the times
that you went through my mind
and thats all i will ever know
for i love you so
we used to be so close
but now we are so far
in that crowded bright room
its so dark and lonely
i cant be with you
and i cant be without you
i am never too close
always too far
i wish you could see it
the way that i do
now.

im in the darkest corner of your heart
if i am anything anymore
to you
so wrong
in such denial
all i can think about is how there will never be
an i love you
a brush on the cheek with your own
that glisten in your eye
and i have to much time
to know that you will never know
how ignoring the fact that we both know
that you know that i still want you
(to be close again.)

i'll take a side of you with that.

i was so wrong about you
everything was a lie
every time you inched closer
was only because you didnt have room on the other side
i thought you were so much better than you really are
hiding behind the dark hoodie
you lied to me
constantly
i thought you were smart
do i seem like the type
i believed you
i was blinded
but i still look for you
you will never know how fast it all gets around
i know what you say
but you will never know what i think of you
too much time to think
means the more i hate the way i love you
so you better pray for a damn busy week for me
so you dont lose one more
for the record
i was betrayed
but yet i wish i could get back to you
i fantasize about forgiveness
i dream about the kiss and make-up
really, only the kiss
but its too late
that night i wish i wasnt alive
i wish i had no keyboard
that bred every tear
every letter on "caps lock"
every hot rash on my chest
it was all for you
thats all it will ever be

a lie ripened by time

she ruins everything
she said she would help
but she's on your side
like talking behind your back
but it's behind mine
i know you talk
you would bet on her
but i can just go to hell
she fucks everything up.
everything.

i wish i couldnt hate you
i never did anything to you
every cut i had
you dug deeper
with the knife of your heart
literally
if only i didnt care so much about you
if only you knew me better
and knew how i would react to you
and your lies
youve hurt me
more than you know
the tears have dried
but once i look into your eyes again
theyll wet my face once again
cooper i (love) hate you

i will always love you
although youve caused so much hurt
so much jealousy
i keep having dreams
and i tell them
and forget they will never come true
but what am i supposed to do?
i know you know
what im talking about
firsthand

whenever you wear something dark
youre eyes are as light and bright as the sun
whenever you wear something light
youre eyes are as dark and mysterious
as i always knew you to be
i guess i have spent way too much time
looking in to your beautiful eyes....

-"would you be sad if i died?"
-"dont ask me that"

i went to a wedding last night
and all i could think of was you and me
the ring slid on my finger with the touch of yours
the "i do" said by your soft voice
every picture with your shining face next to mine
i hate weddings.

everything you say
i was was about me
everything you do
i wish was with me
im getting jealous
of everything you say to her
and every smile
i think i see a glint in your eye
that im afraid to know
what that means.
"you just brought me down"
"all i wanted was your love, love, love, love"

once upon a midnight dreary
i drowned in my tears
of you
every thought
every moment
every word
is you
every moonlit night is spent
without you
every sunfilled sky
is missing you
you are what makes me,
me.