failed that test

"you would look so cute together"
but thats what they always say
even though we are the same
we are so different
the green in your eyes tells a different story
than the green in mine.
and i want to know
if theres a way
to make the two collide
but i know you hate me now
even after the
"i wish our little fight never happened"
but you said
"it wasnt really a fight"
but its different now
and that wasnt the answer i was looking for
im giving up
and theres lies
and the tears i feel like crying are not going to
help.
she likes you too
and knows i love you
but doesnt know i know she likes you.
and i wish it was only me for once
after three years i gave up wanting that one
because i had no chance
and he knew.
now you know
and i should give up on you too now.
but for some reason
i cant
let go.

the snow shines so in the moonlight

i am always waiting for you
but you always leave without me
i always close one door
but seem to slam the other one
on the hopes
of us.
no one else will ever know
not even you
the curtains are blowing
in the breeze of the pain
that never seems to cease
why is it always you
that i think about
i cant explain how perfect you are
your flaws make you even more perfect.
i think you have potential to be
quite the person i wish you to be.
i am the queen
and i need a king
and in my mind,
you are the most royal of all.