I try to wonder what's going on in his head whenever our eyes meet. It's like a place that I can't seem to get to, but only he can and there is no map to get there. Then sometimes I wonder if that place I hope is there, really is there. Like what I'm thinking, hes thinking too, but just doesn't want to say it. What's wrong with me? What's with this phalocentric world making me feel so under his level. Like the deciding factor is him and what he wants. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it does to me. In the long run I don't even know if it's you that I want. Is it the other one I've been watching for a while...or is it you? Something seems wrong with falling in love with one of your best friends. But is there anything wrong?